Atonement and Awareness

"The more spiritual an individual becomes the more sensitive he becomes to his imperfections. The better he becomes the worse he realizes he was." I can tell you that this is more true than I would have ever thought. But when we look at the scriptural examples the Lamanites at one time said "whatever they did was right" and then on the other hand we have one of the most influential prophets in history, Nephi, saying "O wretched man that I am" What made the difference?? Please answer in the comments :)

" The greatest of all faults it to be conscious of none."

"Some memories can never be erased, some relationships can never be severed,  some feelings are never forgotten, such things outlast both time and death."

The atonement enables each of us to not only change our habits but to change our hearts so that we will have no desire to do evil but to good continually. Those who experience a change of heart will manifest sorrow, not just any sorrow but godly sorrow. That will bring them into the depths on humility and enable them to truly repent. There is to be no need for outside pressures to make this change. In fact in my own experience I have seen that outside pressures made me change my outside but deep within my heart I had not changed. Until I had no one outside to pressure me and I realized this was on me. "One has not begun to repent until he has suffered intimately for his sins." The atonement is an infinite sacrifice that encompassed everything. Every past, present, and future transgression, everything I have done or you have done. It has paid for every little bad thought, accidental curse words, and I think more importantly the deliberate disobedience to the commandments. Those who feel that they are not able to repent or are too far gone are being fooled. No one is beyond the reach of the Saviors love for us and the effects of his sacrifice. He suffered for each of us personally, not just one big mass of pain but suffered personally for ever soul so that he would know what it was like and be able to support us in our times of need. If you say I am too bad to repent than you are belittling the sacrifice made by our savior that he made out of love for every soul that would ever live. He loves those that are righteous and payed the price for them and not only that but loved and ensured that even the vilest of sinners, the most wicked people this world has ever seen will always have a way out if they would repent. I would like to say that I have witnessed for myself from the outside as a missionary seeing people change their hearts. I have also more personally seen what I have gotten out of Christ's sacrifice and that a change of heart is not beyond anyone's reach. The one thing that made it difficult for me was pride. But I can tell  you with my whole heart that no matter where you are, what you have done, the Saviors arms are always open for you to come home and feel the infinite love that he has for each of us. I can testify that I have felt of that love and I have seen it bless my life and the lives of others more then they or I have ever dreamed. The changes that you see in the scriptures actually do happen to people.  I can testify that this is true and it happens today I have seen in happen in my own life. That mighty change in your heart can and will happen if you will become humble and do whatever is asked of you to make it right with God. I am so grateful for Christ and what he did for me. I know I didn't deserve it but he loved me more than I can ever dream of and because he did my sins are payed for. I hope from now on to never add to his suffering or at least add very little. What a wonderful gift that was given!! What miraculous love he had!! I love Christ and I love being a missionary I say these things in the name of our savior Jesus Christ. Amen.

I am sorry if the above text seems preachy I am in no place to tell anyone what to do but I wanted everyone to know how I felt. Tomorrow I will let you know about some of my experiences here in Eureka!! I will let you know I used to hate tracting.... but now I love missionary work and everything that entails!